Retrospective
It’s not very often that I have an experience which allows me to relive a bunch of recent memories in extremely vivid detail. Generally by the time I revisit a location, the memories of the experiences there are far enough in the past that I have to strain to remember them. This was definitely not the case for me a couple of days ago…
8:30 p.m. on Sunday, Aug. 7 — the last night of our last trip. Our team was huddled under a giant blue tarp having team time. It was quite chilly outside (we could see our breath) due to the decent-sized storm that had just come through camp. As we were evaluating ourselves and how we’d done as a team that day, I glanced over at one of the adult leaders and saw an icy look on his face — it was one of those looks you see and immediately know that something is wrong. I tied up the evaluation portion of team time and before going any further, the youth pastor said all of the adults should talk for a bit before continuing team time.
Some moments in life get etched in your brain indefinitely and can be played back in slow motion. The next couple of seconds is one of those moments for me. All of us adults huddled together just a couple of feet from our students. Without any preamble, the adult leader broke the news: “Guys… the keys to both of our vans… they’re back in the LT vehicle at the trailhead.” Now, I happen to enjoy a good prank every once in awhile and this adult leader was no different, but I could tell from the look in his eyes that this was no prank. “Ok… are you absolutely sure?” — “Yup.”
Now, a bit of background info for those of you not familiar with the trail we hike in the Bighorns: the trail is an 18-mile point-to-point trail with about another 2-3 miles of a forest service road at the beginning of the hike. Since the trail is a point-to-point trail and not a loop trail, we have to drive the vehicles all the way to the end of the trail before starting the hike and then take those vehicles back to the trailhead once we’re done in order to pick up the LT vehicle that’s left at the trailhead. Hopefully you’re starting to get the picture — with only 3 miles left in our hike, I had just found out that, somehow, we were going to need to get back to the LT vehicle at the trailhead. No problem, right? Just catch a lift from someone once you get done with the hike. Well… If I could adequately describe how remote our trailhead and trail end locations are, you’d understand why that wasn’t an option — not to mention that the drive from the trail end back to the trailhead is at least an hour and a half (just to get there). Yup… it was one of those moments where I was starkly aware of what needed to happen even as the words were being spoken: I was going to have to hike the whole trail back to the LT vehicle at the trailhead — the trail we had just spent the past 3 days hiking! And, to make matters worse (or at least a bit more challenging), I was going to need to do this in about 12 hours so I’d be able to meet our team in a timely manner at the trail end. To make things even a bit more dicey, I’d need to get a good start that evening which meant hiking the first 6-7 miles at night. It’s never a good idea to go hiking alone (especially at night), so we all agreed that the adult leader who left the keys in the van would accompany me.
We ended up starting our hike around 8:55 p.m. We hiked back to our campsite from the previous night and made camp there around 11:30 p.m. We woke up at 5:00 a.m. the next day and booked it as quickly as we could. We ended up getting to the LT vehicle around 9:30 a.m. After doing a little math, we figured we had covered a good 18 or so miles in about 6.5 hours of actual hike time — just a bit shy of 3 miles/hour. Not bad!
Now, back to the whole “retrospective” idea. Although having to hike the whole trail back on the last night wasn’t ideal, I began to notice something cool happening along the way: I was reliving and remembering great moments in students’ lives from the trail as I passed them. I’d say to myself “Hey, that’s were so-and-so learned…” or “That was where that student had a breakthrough moment where they realized something about themselves that they’d never known before” or “This is where the team came together and prayed for their teammate who was hiking with really hurt knees or right after one of them had just had an asthma attack.” These are often times the moments that, as staff, we highlight or think about that help us press on and persevere through the summer. It was pretty sweet to be able to experience them as I hiked the entire Little Horn trail on the last day of my last trip of the summer.
Experiences like this can also give you some very practical insight into some things. I was able to spend a good chunk of the hike back talking with the adult leader about how we deal with failure (he absolutely hated the circumstances in which he had place me and the team). We talked about how we so often hate failure the most when it affects others. I got to share some stories of student who had dealt with similar failures (hiking their team off the trail for awhile) and had witnessed their team surround them and support them instead of grumbling or harboring bitter feelings. Learning how to deal with failure and learn from our own personal shortcomings and failures is so important because we *ARE* going to fail at something again in the future. We can either “own” these circumstances and grow from them or simply choose to mope around and dwell on them — it’ our choice. In addition to this great conversation, I also learned three great things about hiking through the experience: 1) I have major respect for Search and Rescue teams who do this kind of stuff all the time. 2) I don’t want to do a night hike ever again! 3) Starting a hike at 5:00 a.m. and watching the sun rise over the canyon cliffs while hiking was simply amazing — even though I’m not a morning person, that’s something I’m totally willing to do again.
What a great way to finish the summer!